Update.

 Well, as I had said in my first post ever, I knew I wasn't going to use this much, if ever. But! I've come back, for now... I've graduated, am now in college, and I have a job at a Japanese restaurant. Seems so fun, right? Well, it's not. I never have time for myself anymore, let alone my family and my boyfriend. It's too hard to try to juggle all of this around and make time for everything. I know it seems like all I do is complain about my life on here, and I'm sorry for that. This seems to be my only output for things like this. I do have good times in my life! Now that I have a job, I have money! I'm able to do more things, even though there isn't much in this bum-fuck town. Nevertheless, it's something new.

Life.

                 Life; what must you do to conquer it? It seems unreachable to have a wonderful, 100% amazing life. After high school everyone has the intentions of moving here and there and going to this school or that school, but does everyone really do that? No. The sad part is, I feel like I'm going to be one of those losers if I don't step my game up. But what am I to do? My life is tough. Yes, There are other people who have terrible lives and have nothing. I have stuff, and loving parents, and friends, and a roof over my head. But keeping all of that is the hard part. With the way the economy is, money is a treasure. Money is everything. I just have so much on my shoulders and I feel so stressed, even here at the end of my senior year. It's hard. Sometimes I get depressed. It's a part of life, but oh well.. Life goes on.

What do I want to do?

 Today as we were being lectured in my photojournalism class about maybe attending the Art Institutes for college, I was thinking in my head, "What do I really want to do with my life?" I've always wanted to be a plastic surgeon, but after looking at all the schooling it would take, I've given up on that. Other things that I'm sort of good at are: giving massages, and graphic design. So what kind of career could I make out of that that would pay me enough? Being a graduating senior is hard. For me it was easy, but watching everyone else struggle made me stress! After I finish my 2 years at the community college, I'm transferring, and that's going to stress me out!

So really... what do I want to do with my life? I don't think anyone really knows that they want to be a doctor, or a porn star, or a cell phone receptionist. Of course, I live in a small, bum-fuck town. So that's all there really is. Besides a fast food job. Well, on that note.. I still don't know. But I need to figure out in the next year.

My first blog.

 Well, this is the first time I've ever done something like this. It's quite weird to me, because I've been on social networking sites before, and I can speak my mind... to a limit. So maybe this will be my output? I don't know. I don't even know if I'll ever use this again in my life. I was just bored and looked at someone else's blog on this site and thought it might be stress relieving if I got one. So here it is. Maybe this will work out and it will be good and I'll post all the time! But knowing me, I probably won't. It's nice just to type freely. I like this.